I’m always reminded of that amazing short story entitled “Welcome to Holland” every time I ponder the last nearly 8 years of my life that I have been raising an autistic angel.
To summarize it: The plans were thought to be traveling to Italy but your plane landed in Holland, so basically now you have embarked on a completely different experience. With no prior guidebooks, converted money, Rosetta stone cram session of the new language, or different clothes needed for the weather packed ready to go on the new journey and destination.
“But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy, and they’re all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life you will say, “Yes, that’s where I was supposed to go. That’s what I had planned.”
The pain of that will never, ever, go away, because the loss of that dream is a very significant loss…
But if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn’t get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things about Holland.”
Is life the way I always thought it would be? No.
Of course not since having a special needs child is not a usual assumption and sometimes can be rare given the condition, and why it even occurs remains unknown or “to be determined” later in this day and age despite the best technology. One can only assume that what is meant to be will be….
I must say that the new reality of getting to live in an expanded world that my son’s eyes/mind has shown me does indeed bring the most happiness than ever imagined. Yes, and that is how I always knew my life would be. It may not look, sound, or feel the same as the average mom/family, but the strength developed from getting through the bad days makes the good days shine even more brilliantly. I’m thankful for my patient tour guide Lincoln to have helped me navigate through this new world. Grateful also that I am filled with a great sense of wanderlust adoring travel.
“The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page.”
~St. Augustine
Kingsley, P. “Welcome to Holland” (retrieved from http://www.child-autism-parent-cafe.com/welcome-to-holland.html)